the echo loft

an unsung melody.
a sinking outlook.

i against me.

Posted by Joanne at 23:42 | Permalink

when u choose to put your sorrows against a myriad of similars, it'll hit u real hard.
yet when u choose to put your happiness against a myriad of similars, it may not necessarily yield the same positive effect as the former. Why? Have we grown so cynical about life that perhaps, happiness is but just happiness , holding no depths of association with emotions?

i know of a person who is hardly satisfied with herself. Her elixir of happiness is very short-lived but one thing for sure, her happiness is made tangible somehow somewhere.
i know of a person whose shadow is her sadness. it fades in and out of her life. It works in ways which no one could comprehend. she could see the negative happiness(yea no pun intended) of every single aspect in life. she was morbid as the word spells. she wishes to miscommunicate more than to communicate to others about herself. Her heart, was beyond the tatters of your torn rags.There was null sense of self efficacy.


then he came and planted seeds in her heart. a heart of hatred and negativity void of fertility of any sense.Exceeding courage, passion and love. The plentifulness patience of his alter ego. Slowly and gently, he ploughed through the fields of her heart to reform one which he picked up. her laughter, he composed them. the tune of joy she had in her, he taught her to it. she steals glances at him during their music lessons, to remind herself of the treasure in front of her. And they, they just sat amongst the music...

how could she not see it.
you picked up a dying heart,
which was on its way for a transplant.
but no, u revived it in ways i have always been unsatisfied of.

did i say 'i'?

Posted by Joanne at 00:00 | Permalink

reliance and compliance.
Caught in the middle of 2.
these gray areas,
i question but yield no answer.

Im some of us learning to be some of you.
just let me face the fcuking fact that,
im running in circles.

I cant restrain.
there's another world behind this facade.
delusional.
strangling.

The screaming never went beyond the bleeding heart.

Posted by Joanne at 02:42 | Permalink

Because if i do not focus and start ploughing through those *love letters* which my lecturers lovingly wrote to me, im most likely to suffer the epiphenomenom of my own incompetence for this friday's CA.

...im slipping off the edge,
...imhanging by a thread...


What song is that?
i need to remember the title.

Posted by Joanne at 23:13 | Permalink

Ai Xin french toast.
Ai Xin teh-peng.
Ba Kut Teh.
Gelare with Apple Crunch Yoghurt ice cream.
potato chips.

would you lie here and forget the world with me?

Posted by Joanne at 23:31 | Permalink

On Tuesday...
Maybe the only thing i am genuinely thankful to God for is not the completion of my term papers or anything to do with the 'self' anymore. Rather, im truly grateful that by god's grace i managed to bring someone so close to me for CG on tuesday. Hearing that so many of my CG mates embarked on a failed mission to bring a friend along for that day's 'community' session, im indeed very pleased with mr someone. It's not even about imposing Catholocism on someone else because Catholics just do not do that! But rather, it's about bringing someone along to attend a highly sensitive domain and experience community through gaming at Settler's! See, we're not all about the Word of God. We can be but, i rather live my life well and true to my faith than to come to you at a MRT station and read you the bible!oops.


On Wednesday...
The xiao long bao mission day but we saw something more 'siao'.


This truck is actually driven like a normal car as a mode of transportation. But its even more helluva cool that i spotted it in Holland.V, parking indiscriminately on a random grass patch! Part of me is super intrigued but the other part of me is like.. just cos it's driven by Ang Mo doesn't give him more right to destroy the greenery. Im all for go-green la sorry.




Then when i was at sunset way to buy 4D with him, we spotted a Hello Kitty automobile! It's actually a Toyota Yaris but the position where the 'yaris' is suppose to be is replaced by 'hello kitty'.


2 cool cars in less than 2hours . Why haven't we struck 4D? =p

Posted by Joanne at 00:33 | Permalink