the echo loft

Who says that board games were only meant for young kids right? Well whatever that theory is, i dont care! Thing is that, my babies and i had our private girlie fun at Settlers Cafe a while ago =) The board games cum dining concept place.Heard of it? If you havent, you oughta do something about tt tragic fact! So mandee's 19th was a whole big success afterall although it was on it's brink of screwing up when the thunderstorm turned against us this afternoon. From gigantic plans of having an outdoor day at ECP to booking a chalet on impulse at 2pm today to a night of i-dunno-wad-kinda-fun at a hotel, we settled for Settler's!Quick thank me mandee!heehee. Frankly,I was thinking twice about suggesting that place initially cos i didn't want you babies to think i have had such deprived childhood that i need to relive it once more at the tender age of 19!haha.The thought of having to pay for playing board games wasn't too inviting either.I was wrong! Settlers Cafe is more than just Monopoly and The Game Of Life! We played cool games i tell ya. Read : COOL. I mean it, i liked that place !

The game Taboo was a highlight! My decade long fren,Joyce, hasn't changed one bit.Humour is still her forte.Her actions makes you laugh till you roll.Literally ! No matter how small it is,they just do.Why, Joyce?Top rated comedy baby!You're my ecstasy!
Oh yes! being the noisy asshole that i am, i especially enjoyed playing PIT cos yeah..with my unbelievably bad throat, i could still shriek like a mad bitch.it's always exciting to play heart-attack.PIT is no different!Now you know what i mean? =P

As much as Taboo was a highlight to me, i suppose Jeffrey's presence must haf been my best friend's highlight eh?Mandeee, now you know why there's an enlarged pic of him above? =) I feel happy when you are. I totally know how you're feeling right at this moment. I haven't felt like you do for eons.And since i cant, I shall make it happen for you.Do reciprocate the favour next time ok? *smiles*

We spent quite abit hence were granted a membership card. Exciting!It's gon be a thrill for me to be ableta discover some 200 over games they have to offer there. =) We only managed to try 5 games? PIT, Game Of Life, Citadels,Pictionary(oh yeah have you seen my drawing of an ant? you should!) and Taboo. Maybe we should try the clarke quay branch next time? It's gon be a long while more before someone else's birthday actually.
Besides,school's gon start zapping my life away. We gotta tune back to our cool-funky-nerds days k? I don't care la. so what if FASS is damn happening.Im jus not up to its happening-ness. Life in the west shall be as follows! I can lunch with Joyce & Mummy at Ngee Ann . For Early days, i can meet dia at boon lay to shop at Jurong Point!Or i shall just look for my pharma mandee.Life STILL revolves around my bimbos.This is just the kinda life i wana lead.Jojo, hurry on to NUS for we can then lead our lives tgt okays?Dia,why are you at NTU?!? At least mandee's just a shuttle bus away.You are a few kilometres away!

After talking so much, I realized that all of them have lab work and im prob gon be the only loser who will end school early.Damn. LibraryWILL be my new friend. Ibook will be my husband naturally.That should count as some form of comfort for now?

I love ya'all so much!

Posted by Joanne at 01:52 | Permalink

Happy 19th Pretty!



(1)11th Jan 2005 The oldest of all.Aunty Nicole Phua
(2)16th Jan 2005 The vain-nest of all-Bimbo Joanna Teo
(3)16th Feb 2005 cake frm bakerz in,Doesnt look quite right w/o THE pretty face in it!
(4)23rd Apr 2005 Baby Bimbo.She's my baby Diana Soh
(5)26th May 2005 she has yet to decide if she wanta b part of dis league.our undecided bimbo Joyce Arriola

Ive been busy.No time for my bestfren.Its affecting me.
So,I stayed up to do this for you ,my love.
a collection of all our past birthday babies for this year.They didn't take my face with my cake.Labelled (3) is my cake.My face? that doesn't matter.Yours isnt in it too.Therefore we are bestfriends! =) That's just a point i needed to reiterate. We'll take a bestfriend shot on..Well, you'll find out! For now, this is just a virtual tribute to my bestfriend since i cant be there physically to spend the day wit her!

Posted by Joanne at 01:54 | Permalink

Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.How beautiful a child i see =)
Yours turly.

Posted by Joanne at 20:53 | Permalink

TODAY I
...matriculated
...became a student of that world class thing.
...saw my CSS goodie buddy =)
...attended the first bible study class in my life at Catholic Education Centre!
...was given a job offer at munchies monkey.
...found myself voiceless.
...found my new love---Powerbook G4
...realised tt i have selective memory
...made a goal of wanting to hang out at law fac!*wonders why*
...am simply miraculously excited for school.With 4 similar modules to my buddylovelybaby!

Posted by Joanne at 02:15 | Permalink

I just told mandeee im lovesick but i dont have anyone to miss rightfully.She said she felt the same way,most of the time.Must be ah jeff.But for me? Can't be him, him or him. So she changed her MSN nick to : we need lovers tonight .

and i knew instantly that We'll always be best friends.

Posted by Joanne at 01:20 | Permalink

Fireworks at the Padang was awesome. They have never failed me once,however short-lived it might have been.Today's was special! I watched it with people that matter even after 19yrs--my wondeful parents! =) Dfinitely not da first time i've watched it with them but somehow it just felt different.It was over dinner at Marina Food Loft whereby you get a spectacular view of fireworks UNBLOCKED.Satay good,Ice Kachang good,Bobur hitam good,grilled chicken good and so was my Qi Ji Popiah.We shared everything so it all tasted even better!The power of sharing. Its amazing.The power of food,it brings people tgt.With the fact that i always feel like the only child every saturday, my day out with pups & mum; a thumbs up as always! only on saturdays!I get quite spoilt naturally somehow.I mean im not very proud of it but it just happens.I think my parents have a funny way of showing love to their children at times.But im not complaining =P. today alone i felt that my mum was unsoundly weird.

I don't know if menopause is working its marvels or what but she was so insistent about buying me a Crumpler bag today!Being the ah lian that she was,she walked into the Crumpler shop and started slinging those pricely things on herself!Tell me if i should've laughed or feel embarrassed at that point in time?Crumpler at 50.Exciting! oh well, my mother for you.She still amuses me btw. If it's anything, i find her to be a form of entertainment at home on weekends! So i told her i need no Crumpler cos it's absolutely expensive for a bag. She went on nagging and criticising about a leather bag i bought a few days back and reminded me of how much money ive mindlessly spent on lousy brandless bags that could've well gotten me 3 Crumplers. Whatever. This ah lian decided to leave contact numbers with the sales lady cos she wana see the Red or Purple version of the new collection which has apparently been sold out.Those 2 colours are probably most suited for me although i think boring black would go with any outfit.Red's cool & funky.Purple's just my favourite colour.Let's just wait till we get the call.Afterall, who'd mind a crumpler bag? Especially if your mum scolds you for not owning one. Crazy.

Back to Fireworks.
Brought back memories.After every fireworks gazing, i always felt like i needed to fall in love soon. Very irrelevant i know.Hell do i feel this way for the past 1.5yrs.Last national day,last Xmas,last NYE,this year's CNY and we're at national day'05 presently.The 5th firework gazing with everyone but a special someone. How nice it would have been to lean on my bf's shoulders when the fireworks start their magical charm. We can then start singing yen huo de ji jie by F4...and fall alseep in love's embrace... I can almost imagine myself doing that.It's all part of imagination anyway. Imagination is the equivalent of dreams built upon sand castles & meant to be blown away consequently. In short, im harbouring on irrational thoughts. Will 2 parallel lines ever meet?Figure that out and you'll probably understand the way my lacking brain functions. They barely exist i think.

Nonetheless, im looking forward to next week's fireworks! I know it wouldn't be with a special someone.Duh.That kinda bites.
Well,at least i know it'll be with people that matter =)

Fireworks. Adore Always.

Posted by Joanne at 23:52 | Permalink

Unwell.head's spinningspinningspinning.Tummy feels like im gon give birth(yea like i know how tt feels).Lethargy is getting to me and tt should really be the last thing to happen cos i dont want my last 2weeks of hols to go down the drain or to nurse my broken system at home.
Anyhow, i think i've been having so much of fun ,it's no surprise my body has finally given way!The past 3days been a delight! i like the feeling of being active and occupied with different activites everyday!At least i think ive spent lesser money than indulging in retail therapy.I think.Afterall, my pocket's still relatively intact.RELATIVELY.
Im kinda picturing having those fun with my bimbos,would've been the most awesome thing alive if it should ever had been. I realised the activities i have with my darlings are very prefixed yet i would still love to be with them 99% of da time?The 0.1% of da time tt im with other pple is just rare, although it's becoming increasingly offten recently.I cannot decide if i like that or not.Im varying between the 2 extremes of like and hate.what's that?aunty is not a socialite(or so she claims),queen and spas jus loves to be with each other cos they stay near each other,vainpottie has MIA-ed cos of her bf(things tt happens when ure attached.).Me? Im basically staying at the opposite end of singapore without a bf and very much a social escort to some degree.See how we complement each other?Think venn diagrams.=)

Back to the fun i had recently;pictures paint a thousad words so being the blazy bloger that i am,here they are.

:::Potluck Perfection:::
over at Gabriel's and the food was yummyumyum especially the sandwiches!Quick ask me why!! haha.Activities?Mahjiong-ed..turth or dare..nightfall..indian poker..you name it,we had it.Truth or dare..well you know what i mean right. Even if i told t he truth,would it have made a difference to the world.Even if i lied, then im jus a step further from heaven?i dont know.I suppose it's jus part of fun and entertainment.So there you have it.Mahjiong..well im always a joker at it cos im simply not good andthe only reason i play it cos...ignore me..im too embarassed to explain.





Food is da way to my stomach! Yummylicious fare!Can you see my ai xin xiao mian bao?

:::Sentosa Splendour!:::

This is probably one of the first few times i actually did something at da beach.Beach volleyball! I loved it and i want more of it,really! I realised in my whole lifetime i only went to da beach with my bimbos and all we did were basically nth close to playing volley.We talk our time away,try very hard to tan and..getting unwanted attentions? Time we get some act gtg to learn to play balls babies!It's great fun. =)


Unbeatables we are!

*Girls Galore!*

Trademark Shot =)

..and i saw the sunset in singapore for the first time!

i suspect i have more pictures stuck somewhere in one of those cameras but i've yet to demand it.I was over at JB with those happening people up there too and got myself one step closer to being a taitai! Manicuring,every girl's dream! I'll be going back for more nail services cos its cheap.Not dirt cheap but of course it's at least half da price in singapore. =) Quality is pretty respectable for over-the-causeway deals too ya know. 4days and my nailart looks as good as new. It's either they have stellar nail products or im merely demure ! A day of beach volley and my nail's looking perfect still.Exciting eh?

im out.

Posted by Joanne at 22:44 | Permalink

That retard.
You friggin' stood my friend up.
Rejected her calls & what have you.
Left her hanging.
And eventually crying on SLE.
Get your balls off where they should be.
my baby dia,he is far from the most dazzling guy in existance for crying out loud.
His loss.

you dont friggin' treat a girl this way.Just how much did you donate to the welfare of NUS to get yourself a place in law faculty.Your retarded actions is a poor reflection of what a genuine interllect a lawyer should possess.Seriously, leave my friend alone because you're worth nothing more than you ever think you are. Grow up.Get yourself prep up in army if need be.That would mean forsaking your law degeree which i honestly think you should anyway.
You're a total disgrace to society.

My poor baby.I know your pent up frustration can hardly be dealt with at this moment.I feel so horrible for you and i know that if i were ever the person involed, i'll nv be THIS strong to face up to all da crap.I'd probably be crying like a bitch in the middle of SLE still.My friend got bullied! I want justiceeeeee! Argh. But what can i do besides sounding pissed on da blog which essentially contributes nothing constructive to the situation.

jackass monkey.

Posted by Joanne at 23:45 | Permalink

love is:Rainbow right after the rain,that hugs the sky,no two colours the same
love is:a child who cries out in the night
love is:a mother who comforts their fright
love is:an angel who brightens our days,in so many mystical ways,wonderful ways
love is:the ocean whose waves kiss the shore
love is:a dew,on a crisp summer morn
love is:a father with strong hands to provide
love is:the woman who stands by his side
love is:a dove flying high in the sky
love is:wiping a tear from your bestfriend's eye
love is:sharing your feelings with ones you hold dear
love is:caring for people,both far and near
love is:cradling someone,whose heart is full of sorrow
love is:belief in a brighter tomorrow
love is:being honest in all that you do
love is:strength from your freinds that will never leave you
love is:a bridge between 2 lonely hearts
love is:doesn't judge distance no matter how far apart
love is:a prayer from the heart of a man
love is:an answer from God's holy hand
love is:the moonlight shining on you
love is:the sunshine in a sky so blue
love is:the wind,carressing the trees
love is:the light in my eyes that you see
love is:a flower born in the spring
love is:a bird,soaring high with spread wings
love is :my freinds,always there and so true
love is:what i think of when i think of you.
love is:i love you.

Those 3 words have my life in them.


A year ago i wrote that on my blog and then as i was reading someone else' journal, i found it there.I hope that person is not feeling like how i did when i wrote tt.disturbing.
i can still vividly rmb everything that happened in the past 2yrs of my life. They say time heals all wound.perhaps it does but sometimes when you look back at a relationship, you cant help but feel the pinch and then you cringe at the thought of...well fill in the blanks yourself.

I've been sort of been put into numerous tests in the past 1yr eva since the end of my childhood love.yeah i call it childhood love cos its prob a thing which happens when ure at THAT age.the age ya THOUGHT ya found the MAN of ya life.the age ya try reassuring ya bf tt even when he goes army in the near future ull wait for him.the age whereby u meet ya bf at every other breaks and try finding excuses at every cause to skip lects and tutorials so tt ya could coincide with his brks.the age where ya start talking abt THE FUTURE with him and ya think that he is your future even if he wasn't the most perfect soul alive.the age you spent your afternoons after sch in his house playing PS2 or TRY studying tgt.the age ya think consequently all tt mattered were the 3 words you constantly resound in his ears.

Really?


Then a yr later, here i am very skeptical about what i've just said.

You know recently i've been engaging in casual chats invovling relationships.It's just even more frequent after attending all the FOCs because bascially in the university, many organisation just seems to be generously sponsored by SDU.So you meet new pple who'll give you a whole new perspective about life, specifically in the university.A lot of times, it's closely in relation with RELATIONSHIPS. what a topic..but i guess it is a necessary evil if you think about it.

Now as i was talking with my lesbie a few days back, i told her that i'd been enjoying my freedom so much so that i really do not see a need to get myself a bf.She envied me yet she knows that at the end of each day,she'll be happy to be irritated by her bf over da phone. oh man that kinda feeling has been absent in my life for quite awhile i duno how it really feels anymore.Then she told me she probably might never get a chance to feel like i do. At that point in time , i dono whether i should feel happy or sad for her. Happy cos love is everlasting for them.Sad cos it's not very easy to actuli determine someone to be your husband at the age of 19.How sure are you about things at this age,seriously?I don't know.Im not trying to be a wet blanket just cos my own childhood romance din work out. im just pondering...

JW always reminds me that i am choosing a HOPE not a HUSBAND.He tells me that at the rate i am going, i will be left on the shelf. ( .. my childhood romance told me he will tk me off the shelf if it should EVER happen to me, so sweet eh?but ok that's besides the point)..there's no rush and i prefer to take it in my own stride.I mean too bad if potential suitors of mine think tt im too passive cos if you cannot keep to my stride, we probably will never be able to hit it off. true? and JW shared with me other things from a guy's pointa view and it just rejustifies my point about certain issues.the question

ME:how to hint to a guy tt there's no possibility of the both of us in future?
himi:tell him striaght
ME: It's hard
him:That's the best way,trust me sis.
ME:but what is you still want him as a good friend?
him:(looks at me in doubt)
ME: guys are bastards, i know if i tell him there's no hope,he'll immediately change target.They treat us girls like dartboards. If you hit the bull's eye.Congrats.If you don,nvm dey will settle for less sort of mentality.ALL guys are like that !
him:but isn't it true.She reject already.What's the point!I cannot do anything else rite.
ME:sick!
him:Anyway sis you must undstd us in army 5days a week , of cos we SEEM desperate.
ME:(wonders what his last sentence got to do with anything we were tokin abt)

haha that was for entertianment.don kill me!No one knows who the 'him' is anw.When he mentioned army, immediately the word DESPERATE appeared in my mind.Maybe this person should have given more thought in his answers then MAYBE things might look a tweeeeeeeny bit different for me.Sorry.It's not fair to guys i know but somehow i think that things can be done in a more subtle manner.don ty too hard.It is a turn off.If it happens,it happens.If it doesn't, you could try,but not too hard.I have so many instances whereby i can just prove this point about desperation.Im feeeling kind so i shan't b mean as to expose pple here.Afterall, i have unauthorized audience.Back to my convo with him.

him: you're weird la you. alot of pple chasing you all so rich you dowan.thot you wana be a taitai?what happened?what happened?
ME:they are not tall enough
him:(looks at himself and felt like slapping my face) i know i am shorter than you can you stop making me feel so wrong abt my height.
ME: haha aiya we're so familiar with each other ,you should know my pattern by now.
him: what's with being tall?
ME:Since we are at that topic.Having a tall bf means alot to me.It's damn superficial.I didn't say i am not a bitch rite. =) Sadly, all those potential suitors are not 1.8.Now you know why dey are only suitors and not my bf no matter how sincere they are!
him: i duno why u are my friend.Really
ME:(looks at him feeling very offended)

haha! How nice to talk to a guy and piss the living shit outta him.We share a platonic relationship.So i guess to him, i am a super lousy female friend.Sorry! You know who you are.=)
I promise you i will make the biggest ice kachang for you soon.Just don kill me for this.=)

Just how did i end up with such a long post when it all started out with a poem which caught my eye.

alright i am so late.What's new.How can i ever be early at the most happening yet boring place in singapore.Orchard road, singapore's only glory in entertainment.Very depressing you know.

Posted by Joanne at 12:10 | Permalink

Receiving emails never felt THIS heart warming.Not for a very long time. that's cos the email was addressed to gao sai(personal joke). im actually missing my roomie.I mean every part of the word M.I.S.S. Now i believe her when she told me she had missed my annoyance when i was in europe.

".....and of course i suspect tt when u read this email of mine, it would b qt late alr, so pls go to bed early so tt u will haf a clear mind ya."

She knows me supa well even when she is so far away!Just look at the words in bold! *melts in love* She fills my void totally. ifeellikethecrappiest person sitting here.friggin' nervous .butterflies in my fat stomach.can hardly put my mind at ease.cant think straight.I was putting my grapes into the Sunsweet Prunes zip lock bag.What am i thinking? i cant think.im irrelavent.i want to dance now.im nervous.i need to keep my mind off things.I wan a hug now.A kiss would take me to ecstasy.so a hug's fine.No a kiss would be good too.but who? No one.Lovin' my singlehod.It's gotta b the man of my life then..papa!what am i thinking, really?

Tomorrow shall be tomorrow. Life goes on.My heart continues to beat.I will continue to be the obese Joanne with very concerning body parts.That frigging blister on my feet shall remain there to kill the living shit outta me.

what a post.

but point is, I MISS ROOMIE.

Posted by Joanne at 23:27 | Permalink

I wished i was more driven sometimes.Like i haf tons up my pipeline sorta schedule.I want to be busy.I kinda missed that feeling. mad but i want. im currently reading The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren.Let's hope i'll be able to have a different outlook for da dear life which i own . It's more of a what-is-my-purpose-on-earth coupled with God-made-me-for-this purpose sorta book.In short, it's just spiritual growth and self discovery time at 19years and 4mths old. im lovin' it. Time i pause to think about my life or say my coming new chapter of it--- A soon to be undergraduate.

So What lies ahead of me coming august 1st 2005?Plentiful. im anticipating for it's arrival.As time draws nearer, my "i cant wait for sch to start" mentality is slowly wearing off.No one in the right mind likes school anyway.At least not the academic part of it.When i think about how pple camp in libraries , abt how pple tear pages off the books, abt how that particular percentage of my assignmet contributes to my grades , abt how i know i'll loathe traveling 1.5hours to NUS,abt the bidding system,abt my intended major which i still cant really decide,abt the outcome of my application to LPP,abt how i got to squeeze my way up bus 96,abt how i gotta climb those stinking staircase in FASS..It's another 4 years, that's if i make it to my honours which i obviously hope so.Now the scary part is not about being an undergraduate i realise. It's more of , what do i do next AFTER i graduate? 4 years away yet it's worth all the thinking . As i look at my very respectable sister after graduation, these thoughts just seem to be even more realistic, unfortunately. Job Interviews with IDA, MINDEF and what have you. So idealistic.Just seems to fit perfectly into your traditional saying of "graduate & find a decent job".is that really so? What is so decent about having a desk-bound job or worse,working for the stinking PAP for that matter of fact?Honestly, I think im only going to the university to perhaps fulfill my purpose of being given birth to.Do i really want to go to the university? If i weren't in singapore, perhaps i wouldn't even be thinking about this.The fact that i am, it's just so tragic.I HAVE to have a degree,somehow.It just doesnt seem right if you don't.Is that true?Tell me i am wrong.So what if it's a degree. Then people question, what kinda degree it is. Well mine shall be the very much belittled degree.So why am i even bothering? Naturally, arts is synonym to more negative thoughts.Im sorry,i cannot be oblivious to that dagger in our hearts.It just is. It just is in Singapore..everywhere.beg to differ? Im not against what i'll be reading in the uni, i just wonder, if it's really my passion,who are you to judge me at all?

Blame me not. Things are suddenly appearing to be quite dubious to me. Still trying to figure myself out.Still trying to find that focus.Still trying very hard to sort out my thoughts. Many times, im so preoccupied with almost everything but consequently nothing.Get my point?

Now you know why i am reading that book?

Posted by Joanne at 22:57 | Permalink

I WILL MISS YOU.

MUCH.

JOYCE LIM WAN PIN!

what am i without you?

Posted by Joanne at 01:46 | Permalink

PETRIFIED

Posted by Joanne at 00:15 | Permalink

The new CEO of Economic Development Board of Singapore(EDB) is Mr Jeffry Lim. Didn't you all know that a long time ago? Well nvm if you didn't, im here to let ya'all know abt it. I reported 3.5hours late for work today.How nice. I wore jeans to work today.How nice.I had 2 hours lunch break today.How nice. i am using free internet service at changi airport now during wokring hours.Even nicer.How can my father not be the CEO of EDB rite. I cannot believe im being paid for this.Im not even feeling very guilty about this cos EDB is jus so rich.Just look at employees like me.

Posted by Joanne at 14:01 | Permalink