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Posted by Joanne at 22:12 | Permalink

Lim, you're a Thrill Seeker

In your life, shopping and spending are exciting pastimes. You may use your credit cards regularly to allow yourself the flexibility of buying things for fun. The motto "I'd rather be shopping" may resonate with you strongly, as shopping is likely one of your favorite hobbies. While some are most focused on getting the best or the cheapest when they shop, you're happy to be along for the ride, whatever you end up buying.

When it comes to your financial state, you tend to feel like you're about where you think you should be.

Oh my..i just took a "your spending stlye" test..i don't know if i should be convinced by the results.i think i was lying to myself.What do you think?haha.Thrill seeker..damn..that makes me sound like some cheapskate cheap thrill ah lian..makes sense? I guess the part about me being aware of my own financial status is true.that's only because im aware that im perpetually living on a negative balance.somewhat i guess.Just today,i bought a new bag from xcessories.It's purple with sequins~ beauty!I got myself a top from one of the shops in PS as well.Im so satisfied with this top.firstly,it makes my breast look big.Second,It has adjustable straps which is perfect for flat chested me,who has no cleavage to fluant.Yet,wana flaunt.thirdly,it is a cheaper alternative to the dress i wan from roses in the loft.Actually,to think of it,the dress wasn't that ex.$45 for a dress.all would agree it's reasonably priced..but i guess it was the fact that i know manda wanted the same dress that i didn't get it.I think she thought the same way too..you know how it goes.Yeah..i wanted her to get it.Kinda like out of politeness.Alas,that girlie is my best friend so it doesn't matter.We prob will get the same one in the end.heh.Anyhow,we bought the same/similar/identical things today.I don't know how to describe.Basically,all of us prob share the same wardrobe up till this point in time.

Im happy with my shopping trip.I should take a stop to it soon.This week,i've bought 2 tops,one skirt,one bag.that's way beyond my allowance already.Not forgetting the money spent in zouk and joyce's birthday.Ok..my heart's in some sorta catastrope now.*pains*my money!nvm.I brought it upon myself.

my legs are deteching from my being and my arms are falling off my shoulders..the workout this morning with nic was too intensed.My part on wanting to sweat it all out too eagerly has resulted in such uncalled for aches!nvm..for the good of burning fats,it HAS to be worthy.i swam probably 3 laps in 1.5 hours!It's hilarious i know..but hey,i cant swim.I mean,yeah i was never in any swimming class eh.

Gotta wake up early for god tmr.

Posted by Joanne at 00:03 | Permalink

i was listening to utada hikaru's songs and i cannot understand why am i so mawkish.sikeningly sentimental.grrrrr.im still trying to learn how to sing the jap version.I guess everyone knows the words..its pretty cliche..but well,it describes me.It's back.Again.I have no idea when i can move on properly.
I ran outta sch literally after the first talk.No,it wasn't bcos i was bored.I know it's gon be useful to me and what nots but i was already collapsing on my friend.There was a reason why i didn't go sch for 2 days after all.sigh.This is unusual of me,at least it was what my mum told me.It's the last day of sch and i was home at 12pm.Well,i didn't really think there was anything wrong with that.I got home,had some pathetic wholemeal bread with rasberry spread and 20 packets of expired seaweed.Oh and i accidentally found some agar agar in the fridge.I know i sound like a scavanger.Yes.My parents did offered to pick me up from sch and lunch with 'em but somehow i was feeling antisocial.I wanted to be alone. After which,i read up on GSS on newspaper and went into a deep sleep.Woke up 5 hrs later.The only thing that made me slightly cheery was prob the fact that cen and i bought yan yan and were having a good time talking about our childhood..(more like hers,cos i din haf much of a proper childhood).
Dinner was not bad.A good way to conpensate for the lack of it during lunch.I had cuttlefish kang kong.queued for half an hour for it!I would say it was a good experiece.My first time trying this dish.Gahh..east singapore rocks and reigns.There is a plethora of good food i must say.It suits my taste.so why not?
k i was suppose to finish studying genetics by tonite.Seems like i haven't done anything much the whole of today again.

i wan my lolly.....

Posted by Joanne at 22:43 | Permalink

i wana sleep.hearts should not be broken at this time.neither should they wander off from the alevel syllabus.im confused.

Posted by Joanne at 01:26 | Permalink

The new day breaks, love sparkles like diamonds in the air,
The gentle breezes shift the geometric perfection of my thinning hair,
My mind is pondering our complex relationship,
My feet are rhythmically placed one before the other,
As I look at the tangerine glow, honeysuckle's perfumed glory,
I think about how we met, the dawning of our love's story.

Each day was burgeoning with wonder, overflowing the bounds of our cup,
Could not gaze nor touch enough, seldom bothering to look up.
Then we had our first unsettling tiff,
Wounded spirits, and bruised hearts, our memories from that day,
We molded closer after that, our bodies did they blend,
To form a single entity, our love we did mend.

From that day, we moved afresh, growing and becoming more,
Sure, we were, that dark times were past, our hearts could only soar,
But once again, the rift appeared, and discord took its toll,
This time we did not quickly mend and lingering hurt remained,
Now we each, our sensitive steps, were careful to be placed,
Then we found that all our fears remained, yet to be faced.

To our wounded souls, appeared that love had fled our lives,
We walked down separate paths it seemed, cold, hard, surprise,
Once more we met and found that darkness overshadowed the former glow,
Laughter stilled, tear drops formed, heads drooped in pity,
On one Friday, right on the cusp, the early part of May,
We met again, and joy, our hearts strings resumed their play.

Then we found, standing arm-in-arm, beside the noisy Inn,
That hurt was lurking, and eager to pounce, committed the deadly sin,
Voiced those thoughts that crushed our love,
That dashed the sparkle from our sapphire orbs,
We parted and returned us both, to our silent homes,
I thought, that all of this, would spell the death of poems.

Then, not to grant the glimmer, permission to depart,
I called to plead my case, I love you so, listen to my heart,
In this simple way, I told you my hurt,
Astonishment cascaded down the humming line,
You understood, and out of the doldrums, burst forth our love,
We talked and verbalized our thoughts, fitting like hand in glove.

Now we think that love's first blush,
Is by us and might never return, but in our rush,
To meet our fate, our destiny to unfold,
We will race to each other's arms and hold and love again,
To kiss and touch, and trace the path, where salty tears made their course,
To whisper in your ear, to mend your heart, to sweep away remorse.

Now forward, to slake our thirst in refreshing crystal springs,
Caring not the attendant strife that our growing brings,
Sheltered in our romance and in our lover's thoughts,
Our timid souls are reborn, moving forward to mysterious places,
This is where, from our past, we find that missing piece,
Able to weave this love of ours, enfolding us in the Golden Fleece.

Posted by Joanne at 01:17 | Permalink

Im pleased with my day.It was well spent.In many ways. =) Now let me start from 6am this morning..

Walkaton
was so glad when i awoke knowing that pups was gona go to my sec sch's walkaton with me.All my lazy ass friends would haf given me a load of excuse so i didn't even bother asking them.In the end,mum came as well and so it became more of a like family day out again.cool.i love my family,i have to admit.We reached CHIJMES early enough..about 45mins before flag off!We were only early cos sis had to be there early as she was the road marshal.yupe.Its heartwarming to knoe that ij has my whole family's fullback support eh? =) my parents do support my sch loads. Oh! i thought the walkaton shirt's design was splendid.Haha..maybe im just plain bias..so long as its ij , i like. =) Yea for 10bucks its totally reasonable.that explains why my parents got 'em as well.it's for the good of the sch..i mean its a fund raising event anyway..(then again,this sch's been raising funds since forever.11 years ago.since i was in PY).. WHEE! the walk was from chijmes to our holding site at Thomsom..was a 8KM walk. It didn't feel far at all honestly. It was doing good to me having slimmer legs too. =) *smiles*


PARTY
Alright so the next part of the day, i attended chris' 21st birthday.k,she was being so last minute about it,i only received her invitation at 9am this morning..i still went,i mean..haha she played an impt role in my sec sch life after all*winkz* k her party was so extraordinary for a 21st bday.There was only the few of us..prob 10?i knoe this is evil of me but wad the heck.I have no idea why it was so pathetic..im sorry.but,its a 21st bday~!Nvm..lets not talk about it.I wasn't impressed by the so-called party.more like i felt reunited with my good old sec 1/2 sch fren ade..=) still looking the same..blossomed too.=)ok and i was happy to see chris as well..seeing that she's doing well and stuff.Then my wifey nicole called to tell me she could go burn my wallet for the rest of the day.I consented..and rejected my new found girlfriend.i gathered my newbie would end up going out with her darling bf anyhow..so yeah i didn't feel that bad rejecting her..oops!sorry ginny! =Pp


FOX.MNG.ZARA.GUESS.BLUE LOBSTER.NEOPRINT.
okie.I went Fox..cool place i must say.kinda.Better than what i expected thats why. Perhaps its due to the fact that they cater to my new pretty jane in t-shirt look.wella..im not into spag tops..tanks tops..wadeva..those which either flatter or faTTer u..even tho the weather's been merciless.Tshirts are jus so casual and i love this casual summer look for now.haha.Im implusive.Maybe my style will change in a week's time!but hell no..i love the new tshirt i bought.It's RED and it has a pinkish butterfly on it.=) not forgetting it's the last piece left for my size =)I saw another tshirt at far east.It orange this time.But i dunno why i din get it?i guess i would go back for it but damn It's the last piece..crossing my fingers real hard now.k only one top at mng caught my eye.but i decided that it wasn't worth the FEW money i had,so screw it.The rest of the shops were jus plain crowded and i am allergic to that.so i only managed to get myself squashed.*boO!

Dinner was fun! Nic and i went blue lobster for fresh oysters and fish&chips plus clam chowder..yuM~ It was a feast.right nic? =)cept' for the fact we met some idosyncratic soul..haha..oh..now we're feeling fat.at least i am.i have been feasting too much.i jus went for a party in the afernoon and had sO much high caloric foods.Just last nite i was at a chalet..you knoe it's a chalet..how much does it say about healthy foods aye?*sigh* im gona bulge from all directions.But my breast will never grow.what's new.*SIGHS* only those thunderous legs and flabby arms and...eeeeks..i dun even wana think abt it...grrrrrrrrrrrr...

After dinner..we did some silly shit.Haha..we wenta take neoprint.Oh my,the last time i took with this gal was wad..2 yrs ago?yes we r really gd frens..no,we are married..haha.but we do not tk neoprints.First,it's a waste of money.Second,digital cams are better n we both haf em..so what for?today was different..we needed to re-live those sec sch days..so we agreed upon behaving retardedly.bimbotic as it gets..we had our share of happiness.So it was all good..the neoprints look really silly..i dun even dare to post it here.. =p

*smiles smiles smlies* im happy today. I haven't really been for the whole week.i was in sch..how happy can that get.esp when i dun really click well with..-save the details- so nic and dia are having a hella gd time at chinablack now.i chose to come home.alcohol kills sperms and brain cells.i haven got much of the latter.. =) better to retain wad ive got now. haha..im talking dogmeat again.well..the shocking reason is that...i am going for BIG WALK tmr..yes..yet another walkaton thingey..yay!i love doing things that yield benefits to my thunderous fats and heavy frame. =)

gon gear up for tmr.its pretty little so no worries.5KM. tata! *blows a kiss

something i just thought about..
Some women can be fooled all of the time, and all women can be fooled some of the time, but the same woman can't be fooled by the same man in the same way more than half of the time.

Posted by Joanne at 23:35 | Permalink

I never realized
the amount of space
you filled in my days.
They're so much longer
with you gone.
I never gave creedence
to how much laughter
you supplied my heart.
It's much more somber
in your absence.
I never noticed
how much of the warmth in our bed
was provided by you.
It's so much colder
when I'm here alone.
I never undertstood
the fact that I needed you
for everything
and nothing.
I'll not be complete
until your return.

that was a poem i wrote for adriel 3 months back.Been 3 months since he was gone."Time passes fast".at least it seems and is perceived to be so in numerous aspects of life.the same does not apply when you are waiting.*pulps lips* No.Im not feeling all shitty now and dying or what crap.Just feeling reflective i guess.I wouldnt have been more reflective than this if not for my mummy who is always pressing me on why the separation.She even tried to fish details out of my sister,who eventually shook her off!i love my sister to bits sometimes.=) Well it's not like i haven't told my mum the details.She just wants to know more.hey,that is all i have to share with her..but you know how it goes rite..mothers..nosey poker.She can be rather adamant when it comes to these issues.Insatiable i would say.*sigh* I still love her.She was so concernend when she knew about my misfortune..*hugs* nonetheless,mummy you really got to stop asking me the same thing every other day.The situation is sinuous enough.I cannot possibly paint out every nits and bits to you.

Posted by Joanne at 11:35 | Permalink

*Sulks * My com has just been hijacked by virus. I cannot open IE for more than 5 mins! So yeah, I am actually blogging on Microsoft words. hopefully I can paste this in later! I realize my blog is mouldy .Rite, so what has been going on in my life so far? well, the closure of my acting career is prob one of the most vivid event. Next up is the good riddance of afternoon PE!*beams* finally passed my incline pull. it may sound like peanuts to you, but I am so proud that I did 7 pull ups. That’s a grade C *smiles*considering I could only do 3 or 2?haha.yes what a weakling.

OhHhHh

! my 2.4km run was prob the fastest run I have ever done in 2 years(ever since I resigned as an athelete ).For a bimbo, clocking 12mins:40secs is pretty surprising?=) In short, I got a gold. Nothing to be proud of really..and gold isn’t difficult to achieve .What was difficult to me was pull up. It has always been.

Currently, I feel like as if I am doing a summary of my life for the past 10 days. I guess I got pretty nostalgic again. That’s old news. My emotions are totally whitewashed. What seems to be curing me is only an inane cover up .In depth, the wound is raw, as hell. I am inching on with life. So much to do, to think about, to worry about.. to possibly bitch about, but so little time. School is ruling over my life (like what’s new),I have so much to do and study~ .I need to tune to my “cool funky nerd” mode.=) should start looking studious with my specs eh?

Now, I gotta befriend my notes and tutorial. Gotta finish em before noon. Going for a chalet later.Sounds disciplined I bet. =)

Posted by Joanne at 10:49 | Permalink

Ok i should stop taking buses.Buses should not be my mode of transportation.I took 2 wrong buses in less than 72hours.Tell me,who can be as direction-idiot as me?seriously?*boo* For both instances i actually convinced my friends it is the right bus.Being nice souls,they complied to me.Yet i repeatedly fail on them..*bish*Joanne Tiffany Lim Wan Ting, Stop this crap!don't be a dogmeat ya?be one yourself,just stop involving others in it. *gahhhhhh~* right..enough of me telling the world howdumbass i can be.

Wella, the bus i took was suppose to bring me to Toa Payoh library.sup do CIP there..yes out of my own initiative.simply cos i have a down right irresponsible CT rep who only cares about her own CIP hours and totally forgets about the rest of her classmates.honestly,if you are reading this,screw off.You are seriously as screw up as you already are.i might slap you if you are gona start opening your mouth again about CIP.conflict,war,tension whatever,i hate this class anyway.Yupe,so i suggest you keep your golden gap closed.alright?now scram.*rolls eyes* ok that was so chldish of me,but i have this burning heart to really have a cat fight with her.i know i have no muscles or what-so-ever and that she is prob twice my size.But i scratch well..i can screech and make you go deaf.oh,i have many sisters and girlfriends to combat this piece of shit.So sit aside and clean up your shit.'nuff siad about that log.

Librarian Lim
CIP at the library was fun~.yes you may think i am a nutcase but hey!it was slack job.how suitable a candidate i am.I did 3 hours and 15 mins..or should it be i slacked for that long?rite i read a few chapters of Harry Potter and did some shelving.i was assigned to the children's section.my first time doing.It started off right.i was all excited and fresh to it.Obviously i got bored subsequently.There wasn't much to be shelved anyway.im beginning to think that kids nowadays do not read or visit libraries like how i did .maybe it's the exam period for em now eh?Library was prob one of those childhood "hangout" places!tootsy tootsy idea i know but i think parents always bring their kids to lib.I enyojed it..the aircon.haz!and messing up the shelves perhaps?=) anyhow,i liked the library.I am not gon deny that.

gon grab a bite now and have a good siesta.*smiles*

Posted by Joanne at 22:32 | Permalink

sup to go for a family day function with my family obviously..wella..ended up with my girlies.=)was all wet and wild n fun.too bad im still not tan..i am beginning to suspect that i am resistant to sun rays..gahhh.Anyhow,i am a jinx.Whenever i wana tan,it'll start raining.It did today when i was on my way to the club..basket case. i was whining abt the rain to nic over the phone so much i think my dad was about to throw me outta the car.(dad was sening me there)Thankfully,the rain stopped and mr sunshine decided to be kinder,to me.=)my shoulders are badly charred tho.plus a rudolf nose and flushed cheeks.besides that,my tummy and legs are like that of white chicken..ohh we were comparing our thunderous thighs..omg..it's so bad we are all dying to lose it.seriously.ahhhh!fat thighs.Nevermind..let's just hope that nic's "slim thigh" book from kino will work.*beams* mmm..

we had a rather disgusting tea break .. the sausage looked like..decomposed and fungus inhibited penis.sorry for the vulgarity there but really.it was so hard like..What?the only appetizing food was the chips that came along with the sausage sandwich thingey.whatever it is called.Nevermind about that,we had a lovely dinner.Dined at five star chicken rice place..yumz..like how long ago did i eat a decent plate of chicken rice.=) Then we had fried you tiao and some minced meet tofu..plus a plate of kailan..hungry enough?=p yup.not bad.kinda budget.3 of us came up with 10 bucks each.gd deal eh?=) After which,being hungry ghost that we are,we wenta chomp chomp to get dessert =) bought our all time favourite Ice Kachang with Red Ruby. yes yes..=) Food..Root to all the bulges and lipids and what nots.. argh* okie i took almost 2 hours to write this cos im actually not home now..gon slumber at nics's with mandy! yay!gon haf a trio tonight..whoopz!our lesbian tendencies are surfacing now that we are almost all single..=) anyhow,gotta run now..they are waiting for me to eat roti prata..=)

some pics of the day..=)

Posted by Joanne at 22:28 | Permalink