the echo loft

-happy times for the happy quartet.namely,Joanne,Cenying,Gina and our beloved Junwen(this guy is our sista)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING CENYING! oh my im so glad.i love this gal so much.probably one of the rare sort you can find in ny or my class for that matter of fact. *beams* (sorry but i guess i can count with my fingers the no. of pple i can connect with in sch)..yeah and for some unknown reason,it's a tradition between our lil clique to take photo stickers on birthdays.so there! we have it.i look spastically sleepy+blur+unattractive+cocky.=p Wenta eat at Kenny Rogers since it is cheap and good.So good that it has lasted me since 4pm till now and i am not the wincy bitsy hungry.The macaroni and cheese,as we all know,was superb.Bad consequences to be beared tho.SO ja lat..i duno how you spell that..but i guess my msg is being sent across eh?Those 3 crappers were so shocked by me when i burst out laughing uncontrollably after the meal.I couldn't stop laughing! It wasn't intentional.I felt so loved and happy being with them suddenly!Then they found out some truth about me.Food makes Joanne happy and she laughs a lot after eating.=) Well,so when ever i get sad overs tuffs..Junwen will go like "more food pls!" =) Cool.bought some cheapo socks today.I thought they look so yummy thats why i got them.They look like candy babies! so colourful and a real charm for my feet.=) Gon fashion it ard.=).3 pairs for 2SGD..how budget is that right.Gosh,this budget word is appearing a little too frequent in my brain.i gather it is so natural for me now.*come on save money u prick*

Right im feeling slightly happy for the first time since..forever.Adriel finally replied me on msn.like..Oh my..guess he isn't avoiding me.Just wana be clean with me on the sad separation.Was talking to my wifey nicole.raved and rant about how silly i am.Would anyone be as silly as me to still be so sticky to someone who probably dun give a shithead ass about you.dogmeat i tell you.I told wifey i wana meet up with him when he's back.Wifey allowed me.(she controls my life now btw,calls me up everynite to check on my emotional level and is even intending to change her daily schedule to fit mine.what a darlin. ) She warns me not to do anything nutcase.Honestly,there is a 50% chance i would.So afterall,maybe the best way to control myself is by not seeing him.Which i do not want as well. Joanne,that's the problem with you.oh well...how.someone,tell me how..im really going crazy.When i took bus 133 to suntec today,i passed by his house.I cant believe i turned my head to look at it .Stare to be precise.I took 3 looks.The bus uncle drove rather slowly.Im grateful for that.Should i be ?i don't know.i just felt so happy for that moment.i wished i could alight,cross the road,go up to his house and say hello to auntie.Maybe she'll serve me some brownies again.I'll never forget how she comforted me at the airport when he left me for aussie.....k stop it.i feel like crying already...oh well..i really missed those times.Not the brownies.the love and romance i had.I cannot stop thinking or forgetting much as i look so carefree.I am hollow.down right and under.it's lonely,im one dependent gal.you who know me knows it.I need someone.i need you.

Posted by Joanne at 21:44 | Permalink

i had sucha queer dream.My handphone started ringing in my dream and the person calling was "baby in australia"..I din pick up.It just rang continuously and i held it in my hand.sigh.I cant believe this happened.Give me the courage and strength to move on.

Posted by Joanne at 10:54 | Permalink

Had 4 hours of sleep the previous nite.

Dia's birthday
We were all suppose to dress retro.In the end,nic and i played her out,tgt with the rest as well.=)well dia,you're the bday gal!so we wanted you to stand out!=)you've got a pretty dress.honest.fuck those trio who were criticizing their ass away.Wait a minnute,2 of them even came uninvited.*raise brows* (din mean to b sucha bitch but they realli were sucha put off.)For our current financial standing,we concurred that crystal jade would be satiable instead of indochine.Our initial plan was indochine you see.you've gotta agree that it was value for money aye?mandy nic and i shared 2 bowls of la mien and one basket of shanghai xiao long bao.Every part of the dinner was happy cept that for me,i know it raked up lotsa memories .. *state of nostalgia*.Ohhh for a change this year,dia's "bday cake" was prob one of tose most budget ones you'll think of! we got her a lotus bun and poked a candle into it.heh.unique? in case ure wondering,it's one of those pinkish lotus bun.i think it's called "shou tao" in chinese.cutesy idea we hav eh?budget times calls for budget needs.I've been trying so hard to save money that my freinds in sch thinks i will be malnourished soon.Side track:(3 tutors had already came up to me and were terribly concerend over my consistent lost of weight.what can i say?i DO eat.my mum force feeds me n watches me eat cos she thought i was not eating.later she realised that i do eat.just duno wth is wrong with my body.my dad suspects i've terminal illness.like wtf?i duno.lets not dwell into it.)

Gah..for after dark..We wanted induz but decided it was sleazy as it is for 4 chicks to go.So wenta chinablack in the end.The queue was incredibly long but for dia,we queued. Hy and nic went in free cos dey had to jump queue in order for hy to get in since she was using my ezlink n i was using my ic at the same time.So we had to be at two ends of the queue.my legs were amazing,i survived the queue..what a surprise.=) Music wasn't good.at least i din like it.had to share the birthday drink with dia. which is one flaming lamboguini.gosh,i nearly set myself aflame as well.felt so horrible in the tummy after which.that's not the end!to celebrate singlehood,we each got a shot.So my poor tummy was a mixture of sour n warmth.i felt quite horrible cos i already haf sucha bad stomach to begin with.yest jus wasnt a gd nite in fact.was feeling so screwy over adriel again..gah.nonetheless,it was my girlfren's big day,i cannot be sucha wet blanket can i? As usual,to please my already breaking down digestive system,we went newton,hoping for the better.Fwah! the chilli was crazee~..even yang yi cried after eating.this guy's one crappy ass.oh well it's dia's fren,so they are all the same la..crappy but really steady.=) i think he made nic and i laugh so much,singlehood was not much of a laughter tull last nite at newton .. =) *beams* yang yi's fren was a funny chap too.mmm duno what's his name tho.

Wella,my beautiful freinds out there.you all,most of you,are already 18~ well nic's turning 19 la that old bitch.aha.we're old.i wish i was still 16.underage clubbing was somewhat more exciting eh? =) you've all got that chick thang in ya aye?everyone of you! (thick skin but seriously who cares eh?) more birthday fun for our last chick standing ya?and thats manda.=)

HAPPY 18th dia =) i know you had been dying for this day to come.By now you should have already signed urself up at the driving centre as well~ =) *smiles*

^..here's the babe,with her "cake"^



^Those chicks with those thangs~ =)^ -joyce,nic,manda,anne,dia,hui yue-


^The birthday gal and i^


My eyecandy...saccharine sweet with those swing~


My smart, pretty, mascular bestfriend..(ive secretly taken her out of the bestfren list!ssshhh =p ) MANDA, your sucha darlin'.

Posted by Joanne at 12:04 | Permalink

Crap.i jus deleted some of my past entries. i feel like a retard now.Anyhow,was pretty bored so decided to change the blogskin.Now i ended up causing much destruction.I predict the fall of this blog soon as well seeing that life is going berserk for me.

Posted by Joanne at 13:28 | Permalink

schism.Between my longing heart an incredulous soul.
I cannot regress this debate.Im sane.but the lack of it isn't.Dont fault me.I am incontrovertible.
Take it as it is.

Posted by Joanne at 22:36 | Permalink

**remotely missing you**
sorry.

Posted by Joanne at 22:59 | Permalink

HOTCAKES:HOTCAKES:HOTCAKES

What was that for? =) nothing. Just me getting pretty silly over trivial things. which is being happy that I had hotcakes for breakfast! Read : HOTCAKES. =) Long awaited. i love em. Thanks to my sweet Daddy. You see, I was about to be late for sch today. My dad was bits sweet and said "lets go get your hotcakes, you'll be late for sch anyway."=) what lovely pups I have. =) Reached sch at 840 for my lesson after which. bleh.

Fridays are condemned days for me. simply cos I have 7 periods of breaks. To add on to this, sch wasnt pleasant.(since when it was anyway.) It was the release of project work results and everyone in my class were so eager to know despite the fact that the college didnt intend to reveal the results today.(seriously, what is wrong with my classmates? relax will you pple.)Eventually my charming mr lim revealed to us. Well I had a band 2.It's suppose to be considered good cos the norm is band 3.I guess im glad then. Relatively.

The day was a lot more juicy and heart warming subsequently~ =) met up with my senior cum fren cum drama pal cum neighbour cum care-giver? haha. well there you go, its gavin.He's enlisting.So it's kinda like a farewell dinner i suppose. Firstly, I screwed myself up by forgetting to bring enough money! no! I wasnt intending to free load. Its not me. ask anyone. Its just that I rushed outta the car this morn and pups forgot to give me money tts why. We dined at Ajisen Ramen. My first time there. Never dared to try it cos the word Ramen jus gives me a spicy impression. I was wrong tho. Hmm initially I was trying to be humble (I had cash flow problems u see.) and didnt want the set meal.(tho deep inside me I was dying to~).Well I succumb to it when the indecisive side of me surfaced. I couldnt choose between smoked unagi or jellyfish. So gav suggested we have both!(I was happy okay.. i mean much as I was trying to b humble.. haha)So there! I could have the best of both worlds~ =) dinner was not bad. I will go back to that place again. It's not a place that I walked out saying "it poisoned my gut." =)

Oh then after dinner we walked around, bet we were down with concealed rounded tummies !it was a wholesome share. Went MPH to be cheapskate and browsed thru the latest issue of Cleo. Headed to the supermarket (I swear it's my favourite past-time. i do that with almost everyone and anyone who goes out with me!)after tt. Walked around and we discussed about all the grocery and food there. That's what makes it interesting!=)
Kaez and the most silly thing that happened today was that I felt like as tho i had a photo shoot session with his camera. So crazee! Well its been long since I felt so crazee. Anyhow, I can afford to be. Call me flirt or a bitch, damn u then. So long as I noe what im doing and I know its no camera or internet whore for that matter.(I know for a fact that there are prob pple reading this and feeling this way.)Shall try to upload the pics. Or if im too lazy I guess u can access it via gav's. Its horrendously crazee la the pics we took. Especially At mrt stations. not forgetting some spastic bicycle pictures~

Blah! im knocked out. There's so much more that's in my mind. For now, that's all.How anticlimax this is gonna sound.but im nostaligic .*sighs

Posted by Joanne at 23:32 | Permalink

*plums* heehee..im elated~ there's something to look forward to for every drama rehearsal!for today,it was plums!Gav bought me 2 types~ wee!! yeah.it was not bad at all..super sour.I love it. *smiles* thanks gav. Oh yeah..pls stop wasting plums or doing disgusting actions with it gav.u r totally sick in ur mind for doing tt.come on,its plums..respect it~ it's something i cant live without!

Rite just had my dinner.call it super if u wish.Anyhow,tts the life you lead for being in ELDDS i suppose.Irregular mealtimes due to irregular rehearsals time.make sense?yeap.I really want this to be over..and it will in less than a month's.I can hardly wait.*beams* Anyhow,what a bad day i had today before Gav cheered me up with those plummies.The damn dinner&dance and a load of bullshit that came along with it.sigh.Im SUPPOSED to be guilt troddened.Whatever.like it's even my fault in the first place..oh well.i shant slander here.Im nice.(then again,i know in tt minute sheathe of my heart cells,im not.)

gotta run for my essays now.

Posted by Joanne at 22:36 | Permalink

i found a bitching pal.She knows who she is. =) im gald.There is,after all,someone in this sch who 's worth my time to bitch ard with. =) thanks. something for me to look forward to.*beams*. like how shallow of me ...what the heck..im downright deproved of a bitching pal in sch.so anything goes.

Oh i ran 4km today!Woah..i was so drenched with sweat,fats,salt,sugar,dirt..u name it i have it.Felt pretty good after that.The " my brain had washed out all its shit " feeling.also,i felt thinner!but ok that's not the point at the end of the day.I had 4 helpings of freid bee hoon for dinner after that anyway.yum.how i miss eating proper food.sch food is total dogmeat.i save the most money on sch days.But my wallet is its saddest on weekends.=) heck. i deserve it anyway.its the weekend.Gotta be careful tho..next 2 weekends i'll be spending a lot.parties..birthdays..the usuals.=) happy things that is.

Posted by Joanne at 23:32 | Permalink

ROMANTIC ONE. The really most most most important
for you is that she/he is romantic. You love it
to get love letters, red roses and be in a
romantic atmosphere. He/She must make you think
that you are the most beautiful of all. When
he/she is romantic she/he has you got in his
hands. When he/she tells you all that he/she
feels for you ,you are devoted to him/her. At
this point you are easy to be tempt. Your heart
is soft and pure and you would never cheat as
long as you love your partner. But if he cheats
you, you are not hiding your feelings and show
how much she/he hurt you because you trusted in
him/her and never thought he/she could do this
to you.

~THE big LOVE TEST!
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Posted by Joanne at 14:28 | Permalink

the college's I-learning day..whatever that is suppose to be,i take it as a day for me to slack and be bored at home.True enough,i woke up pretty late.It's been so long since i woke up so late.10am.Had a blueberry bread..so sad,i was hoping someone will buy me hotcakes real soon.Maybe i'll be love struck,drop dead and marry him.*grin* i wan hotcakes with maple syrup~ yummy..i think i should go to the supermarket and buy myself that "hugry Jack" pancake mix..is that it?i dunno which brand..but it has yellow packaging. it's been so darn long since i blogged.simply cos my com ha been real screwy.I was blogging the other day..but the com hung and my IE shut down.dogshit i tell you.It has been screwy since the other day i off the switch without shutting down...*sigh* i think i am sucha dumbass now.The post i was writing that day was interesting btw..too bad i don't think i'll write it again la.it happened on saturday.. ^eyecandy^movie^ lalalala. =) anyway,the eyecandy is just for fun..someone for me to get excited over for nothing,seeing that my life is pretty boring now.=)

Oh how nice of my daddy,he came home to bring me to lunch all the way from his workplace.*hugs* I had my usual fish slice mee sua..yummy.Love it.After which we wenta singapore pools to collect the $70 winnings of my soccer bet.Oh did i mention?it was my first time betting since i turned 18.haha.Decided to give it a try and viola!earned some money. K,but i shouldn't be addicted like what my papa said.i won't la..i think it is kinda risky.i was quite scared in fact.Nonetheless,i won.Thanks Chelsea..btw i think alotta pple lost money for that match cos everyone thought Arsenal was gon win.=) fortunately Joanne thought otherwise.=)

Seeing that im kinda free now..lets do a little reflection..of what happened yesterday?since i din blog yest..might as well write some interesting things that happened.At least to me it was.

"hi excuse me Joanne,Can i speak to you ?"
"erm don't look so tensed la im not gonna ask you anything about adriel."

That was ginny,approaching me in the early morning before assembly started.if im not wrong she waited at that junction to catch me.I think she will never miss me if she stands there so,tt was smart of her.I walk there every morning.

"huh?yeah why?"
i was so stoned,i gave her the blurred and what r u toking abt look.

"are you interested to help my friend's modelling agency?"ginny asked with much hope.

"huh?erm..?"
that was me.Really blur eh?i think she was half way killing me in her heart.

"i'll get back to you?" that was probably the only sentence she understood since the whole convo started!

"what about i call you?i have your number...erm.." i was so shocked!how did she get my no.?

After which she began to rattle her handphone number..and i interrupted her..telling her to "miss call" me.But i guess i was either inaudible or she was pissed,she din do as i say.I wanted her to call me so that i could see her number.But well,think there was a miscommunication there.For the rest of the day,i kept bumping into her..and a lot of things went through my head.from "hmm did she get what i said this morning?" to "i think she is finding me irritating." to "oh my goodness..i want to tell her sorry for being so rude." haha.Anyhow,i managed to contact her later in the day as i got her number from a friend.Cool.Now,i think i just made a friend in sucha weird manner.I never thought i would speak to her actually.Seeing that she is an ice-queen.no offence!

Yeah so that was about all.Strange eh?

Posted by Joanne at 13:44 | Permalink

*pat shoulders* so glad i made it to maundy thursday mass and church visiting without my parents(which means no car!) thanks to Ben and nic.Oh well wenta Bens church.St Theresa's that is.Kinda hot though.not air conditioned.But they haf an interesting congregation actually.There were alot of non chinese,not trying to be racist la but yeah it was just extraordinary over there.Nonethless,The mass procedere there was kinda exotic as well.or maybe im jus sua ku.Received holy communion with wine!quite nice~ but Ben is sucha ass..he had to make fun of me receiving communion with my mouth open..i know i look spastic..but...that was what the priest told us to do--receive communion with your mouth for today!I guess nic was pretty damn bored throughout the whole service cos to begin with she isn't catholic.Now you wonder why she was there right? *grinz* there's a reason for it..well i guess i had better not embarrass her.Keep poise for my eyecandy. =p

K i think im mad.But im so crazy over this "lalalala my lesbo's eyecandy" person.In case you are forming stars in ur head,that's the purpose actually.Im not revealing who it is. =) but well...im gaga...ok guess its a phase after u break up with someone huh?or im jus simply being a bitch.At least i feel alot better abt the whole brk up issue.i still believe that it was a wise choice despite how much it might haf been..a "Waste"? honestly,no regrets and no such things as "wasted".Everything has its dark sides.The whole relationship wasnt as rosy or peachy as what pple think of it to be in all honesty.Yup.That was abt all Theory Tan told me.thanks Ben.u made me realise quite abit.*smiles*

now now,im not gonna feel nostaligic or brood over it for now.i mean,stop it Joanne.How many times do you wana be dwelling on such "wasted investment" thingey.blunt.but,i have to learn to b stronger than this.

Now back to my maundy thursday activity. After visiting 3 churches:St Theresa's,Cathedral if good sheperd,St peter's and Paul's,we were sO sweaty and hungry..so we wenta kopitiam foodcourt so that Ben could get his dinner.Oh well,he was rattling in abt his $4 bar chor mee.haha.Serves you right for not dining with me at Subway.(Btw i went subway again!had subway melt this time.Wah i was so full and it certainly was satisfying.)erm yes at the foodcourt,goodness,the drinks they sell are no better than drain water,THere's this can drink brand "Cool" or something..practically feeding pigs la.The aloe vera drink of tt brand tasted so bad i had to share Ben's vanilla coke.*sigh* yeo hup seng and F&N still rocks..heaven and earth too..poka as well..Anyhow,i still prefer plain water to anything else.i don't like soft drinks.Green tea is favoured of cos~

BRAND LISTING OF GREEN TEA: 1.Poka 2.heaven and earth 3.yeos

Posted by Joanne at 00:50 | Permalink

The Passion of Christ
Crestfallen movie.It truly moved me.Didn't cry though.was so scared i had no room for that.All i know is that throughout the movie it was so intensed,i could feel the pain literally.i know its so cliche but honestly,this show is so upsetting.And it isnt as if i am in the best of mood now for all these sad stuffs.I went to the movie as it's a family outing.Happening eh.Went with my parents and sis.kinda cool eh.i mean how often do young people nowadays watch movie with their parents?
yup had subway for dinner!so glad.it's been ages since i last had that.I ordered Turkey breast and Ham cos i was so sick of Subway melt.But unfortunately they ran out of the honey and oat bread.so i chose wheat.strange choice i know.Anyhow,it was good.Subway has always been good.Regardless of who i eat it with.*sigh*memories...

Oh yes,nic came to my house today.So surprising.I bet she had a real good time with my mummy.She should have.My mum is SO talkative.goodness.im glad both of them could entertain each other with all the nonsense.Ha..seaweed is my new found favourite snack.Thanks to that gal.We finished about 60 packs of seaweed and a packet of Super Rings.You know those circular and highly coloured in orange dye type?yes.Brings me back to my childhood times.I rmb when i was in pri sch i always ate those tidbits and get scolded when i reach home cos i'll be too full for homecooked lunch!
Nic is hilarious.She just told me that she hid some seaweed in between my chemistry TYS cos my mum was coming nto the room and she was afraid we'll be yelled at!?Btw,my mum is a health freak so i guess she might start her nonsense about telling us how unhealthy those MSG coated thingeys are.Well well..there u haf it.my mum.

Posted by Joanne at 23:07 | Permalink

4th april.Fond memories brought by this date a year ago.Well,i closed that chapter of my life,2 days ago.im not sure if it was cruel of me.why didn't i wait a little longer to make it one yr?some things i just cant control.If i could,i wouldn't be writing this.*sigh*
yet,im glad it ended on a sweet note.no hatred.no harm.no blood.Tears yes.Time will heal all wounds they say.i would jus like to put it that,it'll only be superficial.So much of love shared.It all came so right,and ended so right.
"whether u dumped me,i dumped u or its mutual,we will still be separated". i cant help but stumble at those words.LDR sucks.it does.and like you said offendingly,im not the sort for LDR.Im not.i admit.I will never be.i suck.But,who can reali undstd how i feel?We both din put in too much effort.we were busy.the only time i got to talk to you is online.Good u say,but conversations were always so limited.slow replies.wad nots.And the next time i got to speak to you on the phone,it all ended.Maybe you were nv interested to speak to me or hear me for tt matter in the first place.You've been away for so long,but uve nv called me once.You were always online,whch means i cannot call in.Everything was against us you say.I concur.Our schedules were diff.everything jus suddenly could not be worked out.dogmeat.
I don't blame you.I will never.
Just that,i've always been so idealistic,i wanted so much for this to work out despite knowing how rocky it'll get.too bad,i cannot be living in my own dreams all the time and try being like Mother Theresa.simply put,We jus are not compaitable.blunt.You always thought that i am shortchanged.I assured u i wasn't.Yes,that's cos i believed that if i should ever feel that way,there isn't even a point of something called love.Is there?im glad u saw the light.There's always light at the end of the tunnel anyhow.im so glad u told me that you've grown up with me.At least now,i feel happy for the next person tt will set a new pair of footprint in ur heart.Thanks ad,im reali glad u do not feel intimidated anymore.I could never understand why u did.Don't feel this way towards others.It hurts.Listen to the one who had it through.

You've been good in ur ways.Will never forget how u propsed to me.How i planned for ur birthday 6mths ahead.How i saved up for it.How i adored u even when we were HPY.How we sing nursery rhymes to one another.how i grew fat with you.how i never fail to irritate you.how you never fail to jack me.how i tried so hard to be the girl u wan.how u tried to smoothen out our differences.how you sneaked out of your house to meet me.how i screwed it up.How we love dining at crystal jade and memorising the menu.how we hate dining at foodcourts.how we escaped bills at sakae.how we enjoy shashimi tgt.how we enjoy throwing edamamae at each other and chewing plates after plates of japanese peas.how you love your bar chor mee.how you love your macaroni.how you love pasta and western food.how you always finish my food for me.how crazy we were over yumi yoghurt.how crazily in love you are with subway sandwiches.how we both love tony romas but will never get a chance to dine tgt in there as lovers again.how you love those muffins at kenny rogers.how we had our bestest times at coca.how we read mags tgt at kinokuniya.how we shop for your tops and u complaining how broke u were.how u hate walking under the sun.how you hate taking neoprints or pictures.how u called me porkchops.how i used to be your xiao mao mao.how i used to be called a pornstar by you.how we always end up taking cab whenever we go out.how we are always late comers to each other.how we love watching movie at shaw.how we enjoy gelare on tuesdays.how u hate chocolates.how u love berries.how lazy you are.how late u wake up.how late u shower.how vain u are.how stupid u look in my turtle shell sch bag.how u always carry my shopping bags and never seem to mind.how you hate clubbing.how you think my house is the most pathetic shelter ard with no food.how u used to tell me my cookies were nice.how u use to tell me my cookin sucks although i insist i love cooking for u.how u haf to put up waiting for my phonecalls.how we talked for 6 hrs as frens.how we sleep at 3 everynite and somehow made it to sch.how u gave up ur dreams to come to the same sch as me.how u surprised me at my house the nite u landed in s'pore from bangkok.how you got me an AX top when i was a fren to u.how u gave me sucha adorable winnie the pooh.how u gave me sucha comfortable mogu pillow.how u use to call me mogu bear.how we are broken alarm clocks to one another.how we use to compete who can wake up earlier.how i gave you ur morning calls.how u always wake me up n put up with my moody voice.how u use to pick a fight with me.how you find faults with me.how i always tell you u r lousy.how i always think u don't love me.how you always think i neglect you.how ur mummy treated me with nice brownies.how you made strawberry ice cream.how i played PS2 with you and was so lousy.how we criticize pple tgt.how we get jealous of each other.how u disliked the attention i got from guys.how i purposely made things diff for u.how i always yearn to b as thin as u.how u always show off ur bigger breasts to me.how we went to chinatown tgt.how we discovered so many things about fort canning.how u lost ur wallet on my bday.how u were always torn apart by me n ur frens.how lame i am but u would gladly join in.how we use to compete with each other on msn who can compose nicer messaes using the icons.how we played with my digi cam.how we brought a bottle of mineral water to fort canning and came in so useful.how i set at the foot of fort canning crying when u were gg away.how i sneaked into you home once.how we went to play badminton tgt.how we went to harbour front n planned gg to sentosa's musical fountain one day.how u seem to love me so much despite how bitchy i can b to u.how u can still be a fren to me now even though ive caused u so much pain.how u understand the situation we are facing and hence the break up.how u allowed the ball to be in my courts.how we are so not meant to be.how we can still be loving each other but breaking up.how we are so not meant to be.how i hate to accept the fact u left me for australia.


Going through the motions seems so useless
A fruitless search for love that leads nowhere
except a broken heart and poor choices
I see why I love, but not why I love you


Torturing myself with a love that I cannot have
Nor can you, but we do not stop.....why
We are driven to be together which will never be
Driven by this passion uncontrolled within us


I laugh at the times we have had on line
Smile at the memories of our voices on the phone
But my heart cries to be next to you
Gazing into your eyes and feeling your touch


Oh my sweet, dear love, why did we meet
The pleasures we share so quickly turn to pain
The laughter fades to tears as I lie here alone
Spinning my dreams of what can never be


We have touched one another as no one has
Our souls were one, long before we met here
Our voices are typed in unison on white
my breath is your breath, your heartbeat mine


Is it our ties to others that make the love more real
My vision is clouded between what I want, and what is
When the fog lifts I know I will need strength
For one of us must surely say goodbye,let it be me


I know I will love you always, as it has forever been
This life we are in allows us to never meet
Commitments made to others we cannot break
But we know our souls will meet and touch again,someday.

Jusy a poem.Exactly how i feel.Fate allowed me to meet u at sunday class 5 years ago.Glad that i've found a friend and a lover in you.Thanks for the memories.Im sorry, i couldn't wait longer...knowing that u see no future in us..

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i jus felt like putting some pictures..so cute..

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love is: Rainbow right after the rain,that hugs the sky,no two colours the same
love is:a child who cries out in the night
love is:a mother who comforts their fright
love is:an angel who brightens our days,in so many mystical ways,wonderful ways
love is:the ocean whose waves kiss the shore
love is:a dew,on a crisp summer morn
love is:a father with strong hands to provide
love is:the woman who stands by his side
love is:a dove flying high in the sky
love is:wiping a tear from your bestfriend's eye
love is:sharing your feelings with ones you hold dear
love is:caring for people,both far and near
love is:cradling someone,whose heart is full of sorrow
love is:belief in a brighter tomorrow
love is:being honest in all that you do
love is:strength from your freinds that will never leave you
love is:a bridge between 2 lonely hearts
love is:doesn't judge distance no matter how far apart
love is:a prayer from the heart of a man
love is:an answer from God's holy hand
love is:the moonlight shining on you
love is:the sunshine in a sky so blue
love is:the wind,carressing the trees
love is:the light in my eyes that you see
love is:a flower born in the spring
love is:a bird,soaring high with spread wings
love is :my freinds,always there and so true
love is:what i think of when i think of you.
love is:i love you.
Those 3 words have my life in them.

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So horrible.I love you still..

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-Briefs-
Oh my,followed nic to buy briefs for her fiance.Guess what,i never knew there was something called "anti-bacteria" briefs!Then again,only a silly brand like BYFORD will have it.Yes..im here to let you know how much i hate BYFORD.Seriously,i would never marry a man who wears that brand.Shallow i know,too bad eh?Come on,BYFORD is what my grandfather wears?And Nicole Phua im so glad u didn't succumb to the value pack,the BYFORD value pack i mean.I wouldn't know what to do wit ya.Alright enough about briefs.The boxers she got were not bad though.I feel like getting for myself.It feels so comfortable,especially the Renoma ones.sides,they aren't that expensive,within my spending scope.$14?Not bad eh?Yup,they are really comfortable i think.Shall get one soon.

-Coffee Club-
Oh we studied at hotel rendeavour(i am not sure howta spell,anyhow,it's that one near city hall).I think that coffee club is fantastic.It has a mixture of study room and bedroom room concept.(im probably more inclined to liking the latter .cosy sofas and nice music.It's my new found hang out place especially to study or jus for a cuppa . I highly recommend that place.

1.It's quiet even at peak hours.
2.It has nice furnitures unlike other coffee clubs in town
3.the music is good.It neither puts u to sleep nor irritates you.
4.Good food!(how can i miss out on that),good coffee.
5.It's a striaght bus ride from my house~ =)

Alrite,sadly,If u are feeling broke or financially challenged,then maybe you should just strike this out.It is expensive if you are poor like me and trying relentlessly to save.But wad the heck,i love this place.I can starve myself to study there.yes, READ:STUDY.
Hmm had alot of heart to heart talk with nic as usual.Just a little more this time round.Seems like my future is quite blurred,well only nic and prob a few of my girlfriends noe exactly why(private),or rather i dun wish to proclaim to the world about how lousy i will be 10 years from now eh?*sigh*
Nic,thanks for hearing me out.Only you can spare the time despite having exams.Cool.Thanks for your advice as well.I know i should heed them.I will sooner or later.Just don't wish to dwell too much into it.It's overwhelming.And i know you know EXACTLY how i feel cos you've been through it.*hugs*

Well for all the times uve helped me,i gathered i owed u quite a bit,so im willing to help you with your integration though im busy as hell.It's not that hard,strive on ya?Im not the best person for maths,but i am more than happy to help you.It's a deal.

Rite,im hungry.Tha last i ate was about 6 to 7 hours ago at PS foodcourt.That reminds me.I had ice kachang with red ruby.It was SO good.you see,nic and i couldn't make up our minds between red ruby or ice kachang.So we decided to ask the auntie if we could add the ruby onto our ice kachang.Viola! she could.Extra charge though. =) We shared bobo hitum as well.Our all time favourite dessert.I still think the one at Toa Payoh tastes the best.The one at PS was so..gingery??? is there such a word?well i mean..it tasted like ginger. =)

shall go take a bite and tuck into bed.A dreadful 7 periods break for tomorrow's timetable is awaiting for me..

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